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  Jill falls into step beside me as I walk toward the focus group suite. “I found one.”

  “You found what?” I’m going to play dumb with my best friend in the world because I’m trying to discourage her from finding anymore ‘ones.’ No matter how many times I tell her that I’m not interested, she doesn’t seem to take the hint.

  “I found you a date for the Valentine’s Gala, and he’s literally perfect.”

  I roll my eyes. “How many times have I told you that I don’t want a date for the gala? That I don’t want a date at all?”

  “I’m trying to get you laid, girl,” she says looping her arm through mine and walking with me. “It’s about damn time.”

  I laugh. “I’m fine, I promise.”

  “Your vibrator must get a workout,” she grumbles.

  She doesn’t need to know how true that is. It’s my best friend in the evenings, as I fantasize about the one man that I’ve always wanted but won’t ever be able to have. But I made a decision a long time ago, that he was the only man for me, and even if he’s not in the picture right now, I haven’t ever changed my mind.

  “Please,” Jill begs, “will you at least meet the guy before you shut him down?”

  “If I know that I’m going to shut him down then why would I meet him and give him any kind of hope? That seems unnecessarily cruel.”

  “Because,” she says, matter-of-fact, “I think that once you meet him you’ll see how fantastically hot he is and experience his brilliant mind and change your mind.”

  I won’t. “It sounds like maybe he should be your date to the gala.”

  Jill waves a hand. “I already have a date.”

  We turn the corner and the door to the focus room is open. My father is inside, and someone is standing with him. My stomach drops through the floor and adrenaline fizzles through my veins because I would know that man anywhere. But it can’t be, right? Tristan can’t actually be here in the flesh.

  My friend comes around to face me. “If you won’t even think about a date then at the very least we need to talk about the final decorations. And the seating chart. And about a million other things, and if I can talk you into a double date with me, I’m damn well going to.”

  I’m trying to listen to her and focus on her words because that’s what a good friend would do, but I can’t take my eyes off the person behind my dad. I can almost see him, but not quite. He turns, and our eyes lock. I swear I can see they’re green from here. Oh fuck.

  It’s him. It really is him, and I’m being consumed by fire and heat. I haven’t seen him in person since he left, and he only got hotter. And now when he’s looking at me I don’t feel any of that hesitation that I felt when I told him what I wanted. Instead he’s staring at me with singular purpose. What is going on?

  “Earth to Nicola. Are you there?”

  “Yeah,” I say, not looking away from Tristan. My heart is pounding in my chest and my palms—and other things—are suddenly slick with moisture. “We’ll set up a time to finalize prep this week, okay?”

  “Okay,” she says, but she doesn’t look convinced when I glance at her. “You all right?”

  “Fine,” I squeak out, even though I’m anything but fine in this moment. “I’m just going to be late for this focus group.” The blush climbing up my cheeks reveals I’m a liar, but I’m hoping she won’t call me on it. Tristan is still staring at me.

  Jill gives me a smile, though her eyes are suspicious. “Well, good. Go kick Orange and Basil’s ass.”

  I laugh. “I’ll do my best.”

  As I turn away from her, I can feel his gaze on me like a physical touch, reminding me viscerally of the one and only time that he’s ever touched me. The only man who’s ever touched me like that, and I’ve sworn to keep it that way. I did not lie to him when I said that I would wait as long as it takes.

  Is he working here now? Just visiting? God, if he’s going to be in this focus group than I am never going to be able to focus.

  I walk into the room, and I feel like I can’t breathe. Sharing a physical space with Tristan is like all the oxygen has been sucked out of the room. Or maybe it’s just the way that he’s staring at me. He looks like he wants to talk to me, and of course I want to talk to him. But my father sees me first. “Nicola, perfect timing. We’re ready to get started, but I want a quick word with you first.” He turns to the assembled group of testers. “We’ll be with you in just a moment.”

  Tristan’s eyes are still on me as my dad takes my elbow and pulls me to the side of the room. “What’s going on?”

  “Tristan just came back to town, and I’m bringing him in to replace Cynthia. He’s perfect for the position.”

  My heart leaps and my stomach drops at the same time, leaving me dizzy. It’s true, Tristan works in marketing. But here? Every day? Cynthia and I used to work side by side. There wasn’t a day that she and I didn’t work closely together. If that’s going to be Tristan’s position, then we’re going to work closely, and I’m not sure I’ll survive. I’ll spontaneously combust, first. “Oh.”

  My dad suddenly looks concerned. “Is everything okay? I thought it would be fine since you know him.”

  “No, of course,” I say. “Just sudden, that’s all.”

  He smiles. “I know, but we need someone if we’re going to get some of these lines going and the expansion launched before the busy season. So I’m throwing him in the deep end. I was hoping you’d show him the ropes and help him get settled?”

  My breath goes short in my chest. Images of what that might mean flash in my head. Hot and heavy and dark images that aren’t even close to what he means. “Sure.”

  “I’m going to stick around for this group, because I’m curious about how it’s going. But after that, he’s all yours.”

  I make a face. “Don’t get your hopes up. It’s not right yet. I don’t feel it. Closer, but not there yet.”

  Dad wraps his arm around my shoulders as we walk back toward the participants. “Noted. But like we always say…”

  “All data is good data.”

  “That’s right,” he grins. We stop in front of Tristan. “You remember Tristan?” When I look at him, asking him if he’s serious, he laughs. “Of course you do.”

  I finally get the chance to look at him then, and his gaze scorches me. “I could never forget,” I say, more breathless than I intended. Reaching out, I extend a handshake. “It’s good to see you.”

  When his skin touches mine I have no control over the goosebumps that cover my body. “The pleasure is all mine,” he says. His voice has always done things to me, and now is no exception. It’s like rich chocolate, promising delicious pleasure and satisfaction.

  “Shall we get started?” my dad asks.

  I pull my hand away from Tristan’s, knowing that I’m going to feel his hand on mine for hours. “Of course.” It only takes a few minutes to introduce myself and explain the scoring and comment procedures to the participants of the focus group. Though the speech that I’ve had down since I’ve started working here, I mess up. Twice. Because I can feel Tristan’s eyes on my back and it’s all I can think about.

  But I get the first round of samples out to the participants and try to focus on tasting. This is a good time for me too, to figure out what’s going on with this flavor. Dad and Tristan are tasting too.

  This group will have four variations. Three that I’d prepped beforehand and the formula I just made in the lab. The first one is overwhelmingly orange, and though everyone likes it, that’s not the point of the flavor. The second one is too much basil, to the point where it borders on being a savory flavor. The third one I think is the closest to where I want it to be, and probably what I’ll move forward with in my experimentation.

  It’s the fourth variation—the new one—where disaster strikes. “I just finished with this formula,” I tell the group. “So it will not have had time to chill all the way down. For that reason, it will be a little more liquid than the rest of
the samples. I apologize for that.” No one seems too bothered.

  After distributing to the testers, I grab some for the rest of us. This whole time I’ve only been able to hold on to my feelings by not making eye contact with Tristan, and I continue to do that as I hand him one of the little paper cups after I’ve given Dad his.

  But Tristan’s hand folds over mine as I hand it to him, and he steps closer so that I’m the only one who can hear. “The last time I saw you you were wearing an equally beautiful dress,” he whispers. “And I vividly remember that there was nothing underneath it.”

  All the blood rushes to my face at once, and I take a step back, unintentionally ripping my hand from his. Ice cream mixture goes flying, and lands right on my dress. Fuck. “Oh dear,” I say, pulling away and still not meeting his eyes. I’m not going to admit why I’m so flustered. I guess I don’t have to ask him whether or not he remembers that night. I know that I’ll never forget it.

  “I should get this out,” I direct the statement to my father. “I don’t want this to stain.”

  He nods. “We’re nearly done. I’ll make sure a copy of the data goes on your desk.”

  “Thanks.” I escape the room without looking back. Because if I look back at Tristan I’m going to want to stay and ask him why he brought it up. Ask him why he’s back? And why he’s looking at me like that when the last thing I remember him doing was telling me that we couldn’t be together and then disappearing for four years.

  Thankfully I can get the custard out of my dress without too much trouble. I like this dress, and I wasn’t expecting it to be the victim of ice cream today.

  Looking at myself in the mirror, I take a deep breath. No matter what my body and mind tell me, no matter that every cell in my being wants to grab onto Tristan and never let go, I’m not the same girl that I was four years ago. And I don’t know why he’s here. He left.

  He left. Not just me but everyone. It still stings.

  Not to mention that this isn’t like we’re hanging out casually, this is my job. I love it. And even if I didn’t, Dad is my boss. He’s going to be watching to see how Tristan does, and be around more because Tristan is his best friend. What happens if I let myself pursue Tristan and he notices? That’s the only part of the plan that I never figured out when I told Tristan how I felt. And I never made myself figure it out, because I had no idea if I’d ever see him again.

  Dad could fire me. Or fire Tristan. Possibly cut him off, which would be painful for both of them.

  Fuck.

  Honestly, it doesn’t matter how I feel now or how I felt then. Things today are just so much more complicated than they were before he left. I have to resist it. I can’t let him get too close to me, not until I know why he’s here and how everything’s going to play out. I’m strong enough. I have to be.

  Taking a deep breath, I push out of the bathroom door and immediately trip. The door collides with a body and I’m falling until I’m not. Strong arms are around my waist, and I’m saved by the very man I just said I had to resist. Being held tight against his body isn’t doing anything for my resolve, and our faces are so close I can almost taste our kiss—I’ve never forgotten it.

  “The focus group is over,” he says, smirking. “Your dad sent me to find you so that you could show me around to my new office.”

  That confident smile, and the way his fingers grip me just a little tighter, have my stomach doing flips and drawing up buckets of desire from a well I’ve tried unsuccessfully to close off for years.

  I am in so much trouble.

  3

  Nicola

  I pull out of Tristan’s arms quickly. “Thank you. Sorry for running into you.”

  “It’s not a problem,” he says, and that voice does things to my body that I absolutely can’t ignore. “Feel free to fall into me anytime.”

  “Thanks,” I say, but I’m incapable of saying anything else, even though it feels like I have so much to say. So many questions. But I can’t breathe, because Tristan is reaching out to touch me.

  I swear that time freezes and my heart stops as he strokes his fingers down my cheek. That look is in his eyes again, like he’s trying to memorize me and consume me and draw me closer, and I don’t want to think about what it means. Because if it doesn’t mean what I want it to, I’ll be devastated.

  Tristan leans in, and his lips touch mine without hesitation.

  Holy shit.

  This is exactly what I just said can’t happen. There’s so much wrong with this right now, including the fact that we’re in the hallway where anyone could see us. And there are four years of silence and yearning and questions that have to be answered.

  But my body isn’t listening. I melt into his embrace without a second thought, and it feels like I belong there, just like it did that night four years ago. So impossibly good that I never want to resurface from this kiss. But we have to.

  I have to.

  “Tristan,” I say, managing to pull back barely an inch. “We can’t.”

  “Why not?”

  Whatever I was going to say is lost in his next kiss, and it takes my breath away. His hands stroke down my ribs, and I shiver. The heat from his fingers sinks through the fabric of my dress and this is doing nothing for my resolve. It’s crumbling faster than I can believe.

  “You want me to list the reasons?”

  “Yes,” he says, moving his lips to my jaw, pressing me against the wall as he does it. “I do.”

  I bite my lip to keep back my groan as his lips trace further down my neck. “For one thing we could get caught. If someone sees us, I don’t know what will happen, Tristan. You just got here. You want to lose your job?”

  He doesn’t respond to the question, just focuses his attention on the line just below my jaw. Wetness gathers at my core, and my nipples go hard beneath my dress. Fuck, he’s good at that, and it’s everything that I’ve ever wanted—his lips on me. I dream about it all the time. “Keep going,” he murmurs.

  “I don’t know you anymore. I haven’t seen you since…everything happened. We’re strangers now. You don’t even know if I’m involved with someone.”

  His head snaps up when I say those words, eyes like fire, pinning me to the spot. “Are you?”

  I swallow the lie I had on my lips. If I could muster it, it would make it easier on both of us, but I can’t do it. I can’t tell him that I’ve been with anyone else. I remember the promise that I made to him, even though I’m not going to admit that.

  It doesn’t matter how much I want this, have begged the universe for it. We can’t. Not like this. “No, I’m not.”

  “Good.”

  Pulling the bathroom door open, Tristan sweeps me inside and locks the door behind us, and then his mouth is on mine again, and now that we have privacy, my body is a traitor. I’m kissing him back, my hands finding their way to his shoulders and then around his neck. My ass presses against the sink as he leans into me, and I can feel all the incredible hardness of his body and…other things.

  Our tongues dance together, and this is better than everything that I imagined. Pure fire and heat and aching need gathering together and pulling me closer to him. “Tristan, we should stop.”

  “Should we?” He looks down, and I see the same fire and lust in his eyes. “If you really want to stop, tell me. I will.”

  But I can’t say that, and he knows it too. I don’t want him to stop. I want him to keep going until we both have everything. A small smile tilts the corners of his mouth, but his eyes are serious. “If you want me to stop, I will. If you want to throw me out of this bathroom and never see me again, I’ll do that too. It would break me, but I would do it.”

  I want to ask him why he’s here, and what changed his mind. There’s the question too of why he left, but when his lips crash down on mine—harder and deeper, I lose everything I want to say. Because nothing is more important than kissing him right now.

  “I’m sorry I missed your birthday,” he whispers in-b
etween plundering my lips.

  I try to wrap my head around the words but my brain is short-circuiting. Tristan’s lips are like a drug that I’m addicted to and I can’t get enough of the way they feel. Fuck, I’m in so much trouble. But in this moment, I don’t care. We’re locked away from reality, and even the strongest person would have a hard time saying no to a dream dangled right in front of them.

  “You’ve missed a few of them.”

  “I’m hoping my present will make up for it,” he says.

  “What is it?”

  He smirks, and sinks to his knees in front of me. “Hopefully still a first.”

  Oh god. He’s lifting up my skirt and I can’t even breathe. And there’s no way in hell that I’m going to stop him because the amount of times that I’ve imagined this moment is in the thousands and I want to feel his mouth on me.

  “Hmm,” he makes a sound when he’s bunched the fabric around my hips. “Last time I was here I don’t remember there being any panties in the way.” He brushes his mouth against my thigh, and I gasp.

  “If I’d known that this was going to be on the schedule then maybe there wouldn’t have been any.”

  Tristan chuckles against my skin, and fuck, I don’t think there’s ever been a more erotic feeling. Granted, I’m not exactly experienced in real life erotic feelings since I’ve been limiting myself to my imagination and my vibrator, but that laugh makes me feel things in places that I didn’t even know existed.

  Lips brush against the fabric, a barely-there ghost of a touch, but my reaction is anything but light. I moan, unable to keep myself quiet, and while I was wet before, suddenly soaking. My body knows better than I do what’s about to happen, and it’s begging for it.

  Another touch, this time with his tongue over the fabric of my panties, wet on wet. I’m gripping the sink, my knuckles white from holding on so tightly. Tristan makes a sound of appreciation. “I can taste how wet you are for me.”